hello... haha. had Band yesterday. n tt mr brando tan made me play e friggin solo. i was lyk shivering n i cud not play properly. i tried to play e G but it just came out as FARTING sounds. he sez it's coz i dun hv enuf AIR. true... but i tink it's more e embrochure. haha... i oso hv a friggin prob w my embrochure. i'm s'posed 2 'roll' in my lips n play... but i friggin CANT. e twins can... so i dunno why... it'll make me squeeze even more. the way i'm playin is lyk juz anihow blow. NO proper embrochure. i'm not even usin e other 'proper' way tt constance n eunice taught me! - say 'M' n dunno do wad else. n lyk de souza sed, it IS stopping me from playing higher notes. wah... HALP!

i hv to decide if i wan to go Band Camp or Church Camp in ... malaysia(???). i wan to go Band Camp but i'll hv to play a song 16 bars long n i dunno wad to play :(. oso, i'll hv to stay ALONE at home for... 3 days? IF i go church camp, i won't be able to go Band Camp n which means i'll be e worst tpet/cornet player coz they r gonna 'teach us many skills n wadeva CRAP.' BAH...

there is another alternative, 2 : go band camp for 1st 2 days, leave @ nite. OR go for e full Band Camp n e nxt day, follow some 'stranger' from church to malaysia. wah...

i sort of want to stay @ home n not go church camp so i'll hv Porsche ALL to myself for... 2/3 days. but hving to play a song is STOPPING me from doing tt... dilemma, dilemma. Freak!

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